Formerly Badass Horrible Poetry

This isn't just a poetry blog. Let's be honest, a lot of what I post is poetry but there are more often than not also postings about short stories. I do try to keep this blog separate from my others and post strictly creative work here. Some of it will be better than others, and much of it is in first or second draft stage when posted. These are raw works, and there will be spelling and grammar troubles at times because I use this blog to gauge what works and what doesn't. I use it as a place to get feedback. That's the reason it is "horrible". Because it's not finished-- And why should it be? We all want feedback but most of us are too afraid to put ourselves out there.

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Thursday, April 10, 2014

Alphabet City


Alphabet City


            Along every boulevard, every lane, ally and street – from the relatively tourist free thrifty neighborhoods of Soho to the flooded hub of Time Square—are hundreds upon hundreds of drainage ditches covered by a thin sturdy layer of steel grating. Big grates of cross hatched metal, bearing the weight of hundreds of bodies trotting across them; grates all over the city—grates that you, no matter your age, walk across with trepidation, always fully expecting to fall into the pit below.
            Carefully, I treaded across these grease covered masses of twisted steel for my first two years living in the Loisaida, most often preferring to walk around them despite the fact that these holes can sometimes blow warm air up like a city wide radiator during the chilly winter months. Dozens of times – ok, maybe only the half dozen times—when I would embolden myself and force my feet to cross the girded pit-like domains I never really believed that I could actually fall through into the cage below street level—it was, I told myself, a childlike irrational fear—but ice is a funny thing: Apparently, there is an angle at which, if you hit the grate with just the right amount of force and in just the right spot, the grate will flip on itself, leaving you landing in a sludgy rat infested hole, brimming with dog refuse and all kinds of animal piss. Even as I tumbled backwards through the steel bars, I could feel the peculiar absence of eyes on the street: I had managed to fall through the only deserted street in all of Manhattan. Fortune did not smile on me that day; it chose to take a crap on me instead.
 Gradually I awoke from my landing feeling the lightest sprinkling of rain on my face. How long I had been down here, in the bowls of 26th street, only the ambient sounds of cars honking along the FDR drive pervading the stale air, I had no idea; all I knew was that I was lying on my back, smothered in a sticky foul smelling slime, and that the only street light I could see sat burning directly above my prison in the ever increasing darkness.
I tested my legs and back gingerly for any breaks or sprains before hoisting myself up; I was lucky in that at least—nothing seemed to be out of place: I had only given myself a goose-egg that throbbed to a painful and steady beat. Just when I had found my bearings, the drizzling rain morphed into a veritable downpour and water began to trickle down the edges of my enclosure and pool on the dirt caked ground.
“Kill me now,” was all I could think to say when I saw the growing river at my feet wash a nearby rat carcass out from behind the remains of a cardboard pizza box. Luckily for me, I had not yet noticed that this was the only New York City grate in existence without a spillway for the water to flow down. Moments later, I realized all to quickly. No drain, nowhere for the water to go. Only up. Perhaps that was when I started to panic— to panic from trying to avoid the scruffy rat—which turned out to not be dead, only asleep, as it swam ferociously around my knees in the ever increasing water—ever increasing because, as it turned out, though the pit did not have a drain, it apparently was the drain for every other grate found in the Tristate Area; water not only flowed from a two inch pipe near the top of the wall, but also oozed, with the smell of faintly green, toxic sludge from a rather large crack in the concrete. Quickly the water rose past my thighs as the roar of the waterfall made even the sounds of the city impossible to hear.
Reasonably, with the water already reaching belly button height and with a rat clinging to the leg of my new jeans squeaking for dear life, I lost it. Sure that I was going to die in this hell hole, next to a rodent and every washed out takeout menu this side of China town, I shrieked curses and prayers to that stupid lamp blazing stoically above my head until the lamp went out all together, leaving me in half lit city darkness. To some, the newly acquired darkness would have been the end all of the situation, but for me, it was a blessing. Unlike a lot of people, if I can’t see what it is I’m touching, it becomes much easier for me to touch. Very carefully avoiding the rat that I knew was thrashing nearby, I swam over to the nearest wall and clawed carefully over its rough surface until I found the crack from which water was still pouring.
 Without my vision, unable to see the crusty slime I was touching, I was able to pull myself up to the top of the concrete and out of the maelstrom below: my fingers, raw from the effort of pulling up my entire body ached when curling themselves around the bars of the grate above me. Xanadu it was not, but it was still a better place to be than the choppy waters below; with my current position, I could not move the grate, but by placing one foot against an opposing wall and flipping my entire body around I was able to attain the leverage necessary to force the steel up and drag myself out.
You don’t always feel how tired you are until after you’ve finished doing something really difficult, but this was not one of those times: as I clawed my way back up onto the street I could feel every sinew and tendon in my arms straining for more oxygen; when I had finally gotten out and said a small eulogy for my furry friend, claimed by the sea, I staggered, wet, bedraggled and smelling of a subway terminal, back to my apartment on Avenue A: It was all I could do not to fall asleep on the welcome mat outside my door; I only barely made it to my bed… before…
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©2012-2014 Lex Vex

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